It’s raining today, and the weather seems to fit my mood perfectly. This isn’t the norm for me. I am usually incredibly energetic, faking smiles so well that I even fool myself sometimes. In actuality, it’s just a well-crafted combination of caffeine and anxiety meds that allow me to function like a productive member of society. Hiding is safer, easier, preferable. People are draining, and I just don’t want to do it. I’m off work today, and I decided this morning that I needed a day of hibernating. I spend so much of my free time racing around in such a desperate attempt to make my life less chaotic that…